i hear your voices… i drink more

and more and more

stupid scenario.

I’m so mad that I feel this way…..

start:orangevale, ca

• Yosemite, 

• downtown sac
• san Francisco
• Monterrey
• san Francisco
• Napa
• los angels
• san Diego
• los angels
• san Francisco
• grassvalley
• orangevale

there;s nothing else to eat in this house except carbs. (pasta, potatoes, nuts, beer) no fruits or veggies. grrrrr

Religion is a blissful belief that, though false, should be believed anyway, if at all possible, and believed as deeply as possible, unless and until it becomes dangerous and damaging to competing interests, such as survival, peace and personal freedom.

Religion is currently the human animal’s most common defense against the painful and/or confusing/disconcerting realizations the evolved human intellect and its bi-products imposes on its host.

Where one can not believe in religion, one must accept the concept of mortality for self and others, and any fear and deep sense of loss that probably comes with it; or one must transplant their hopes in the realm of science, or the idea that time and space is illusory, or the idea that the universe, being mysterious, demands us to reserve judgement about the nature of human existence, or find other ways to banish the issue from our minds with drugs and diversions, or blessed stupidity.

Those who endeavor to abandon religious belief are challenged with the task of integrating the concept that there are no “God-given” morals and extrinsic purposes of the universe; they would need to learn to live without capital-p Purpose, and instead be satisfied with purposes created, evolved or posited by the human animal itself, or instigated by nature itself.

One can accept and integrate lack of religion similarly to how one accepts other pain or adversity: by building scar tissue; by counter-balancing negatives with positives in existential experience of life; by growing past the issue itself, so that one might live their days without writhing in spasms of spiritual agony or plagued with ongoing melancholy.

Entrenched religious believers and entrenched atheists typically experience a comparable level of happiness and stability. However, at this point in human history, the particular salve/strategy expressed in religion – while successfully creating a sense of inner peace for many – comes at an increasingly higher price, in regard to societal peace, security and advancement in the current world of the here and now, as technology advances. Over the next century, religion will be challenged until it is modified or eradicated, or the human race may backslide in technology and structures of pluralistic peace, or cease to exist altogether.

been amazing-

love work

love my personal life

love my family

love my friends

in all of it’s glorious complications. there is always this brilliant silver lining that stands out to overlay the negative aspects. Very content and happy with my life right now. And I will continue to work hard and keep it that way. Nothing is ever given to me. I’ve got to keep this positive attitude and work towards keeping everything in order, composed and content. Not just for me, but for others as well.